Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Tuesday, May 21st - Funeral Arrangements

Joseph C. "Joe" Mueller
November 18, 1960 - May 20, 2013
52 years young
 
Visitation:

Friday, May 24th:  5:30pm-8:30pm
Meyer & Geiser Funeral Home
4989 Glenway Avenue (opposite the Covedale Center)
Cincinnati, OH  45238
513-921-4144

Mass of Christian Burial:

Saturday, May 25th:  10:00am
St. Lawrence Church
3680 Warsaw Avenue
Cincinnati, OH  45205
513-921-0328

Monday, May 20, 2013

Monday, May 20th




It is with tremendous sadness and sorrow that I report to all of you that my beloved husband and partner in marriage for these last 21 and 1/2 years, Joseph Charles Mueller, has passed away at the age of 52.

Joe left this earth, to be with family members and friends that have gone before him, this afternoon at approximately 3:35pm.  After closing off visitors last Wednesday, May 15th (which also happened to be my birthday), Joe headed rapidly downhill the next day.  He was awakened from sleeping and was completely catatonic....blank stare and no response.  It was quite shocking and took all of us by surprise.  I'm pretty sure, although we will never know, that he may have had a stroke.

The doctor found that Joe did have blood clots in his legs and lungs just prior to his original neurological diagnosis in late December of 2012.  He was on blood thinners until we received the awful ALS diagnosis on Friday, March 22nd of this year.  At that point, hospice was called in because the doctor gave Joe only 6 months to live.  With his passing today, we did not even make the two-month mark.  Although Joe had a more rare, aggressive form of this horrible disease, we're feeling very lucky in that he didn't suffer for years and years like many of those who are diagnosed with ALS.  His first symptoms did not appear until early November of last year.

Earlier today, we decided as a family that living in a vegetative-type state was something that Joe never wanted.  So, he was administered the maximum dosage of pain medications, and then we gathered as a family by his bedside.  I spoke to him and explained that we did not want him in pain any longer, it was OK to leave us although we would miss him terribly, and then we removed the bi-pap breathing device.  The equipment that assisted his breathing during this awful disease had basically turned into an external ventilator and was keeping him breathing....but he was not living.  As a family, we said the Our Father, Hail Mary. and the Memorare.  Within a few minutes, Joe took his own unassisted last breath, opened his eyes and then peacefully passed away.   

We have not finalized funeral arrangements at this time.  When I do know them, I will pass them along in this blog.

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

May 13th - Monday & May 14th - Tuesday


Effective today, May 15th, I've officially closed the door on visiting Joe...unless you're family. 

Although we've loved the visitors, it is now the time for us to spend Joe's remaining days with him as a family.  We are now back on hospice continuous care.  I'd like to take the opportunity to thank all of you who so graciously volunteered your time to help Joe with his care, and be his "day shifters".  I'd also like to especially thank Pat B. for volunteering to be our lone "night shifter" and sleep next to Joe on our couch to be there when he awakened at night.  I know this was difficult for her physically to sleep on our couch.  She went above and beyond the call.....she said she'd do anything for Joe because he's like her son.

Monday:
Our day shifter today was Becca!  The day time was fairly quiet...no visitors.  And then, early evening Greg S. (brother of Joe's friend Don) stopped by with a dinner.  Joe's sister Jane, and her daughter Stephanie stopped by to visit Joe.  Jane's husband, Jeff, cut our grass again.  It looks great, Jeff, thank you!  Sisters and our friends, Kathy H. and Karen K., stopped by and each gave me a piece of strawberry cheesecake.  They brought 2 concrete molds to make a cast of Joe's handprint.  Karen also brought several magazines to browse through.  My sister, Jenny, and her son, Erik, also stopped by to see Joe.

Tuesday:
Our day shifter today was Tom F. (Elder Class of '79).  Today was a very busy day.  Father Mark and Sister Helen Julia stopped by to see Joe and give him anointing of the sick.  Dave B. (Elder Class of '79) stopped by to visit and brought us some Yoplait yogurts.  Our friend, Sandy F. from Naples, FL (member of the Florida vacation "fam-damily") wanted to help with a dinner, so we picked our favorite Chinese restaurant (Wok of China) and she called in our order, paid for it, and we picked it up.  It was delish! 

Donna B., wife of Joe's friend Tim B. (Elder Class of '79) stopped by to visit Joe and brought us a dinner.  Our friend, Kay (from Taco Bell group), also brought a dinner.  Our friend, Kathy H. mixed and set up the concrete mold/stepping stone and we placed Joe's right hand print in it.  I decorated it, and then placed lettering on it.  It will be a wonderful keepsake.  More friends came by to visit.....Mike C. and Steve C. (Elder Class of '76 and '78), Don S. (Elder Class of '76) and his wife, Janet.  Joe's former customer and good friend, Jack M. drove down from Dayton to see Joe one last time.  And, Joe's sister, Jane came by to see her brother.

Now that we have hospice help back, we know that the end is nearing.  This is such a horrible disease, but I know that when Joe leaves us, he will no longer be in pain and gasping for his next breath.  I'm very sad now knowing that our time together is short, but I also look forward to Joe taking his next step and joining his parents in heaven.  He misses them terribly and was very close to both of them.  I told Joe not too long ago that if dying is like it was portrayed on one of my show favs, Ghost Whisperer, that he should not go into the light right away so he could stay awhile and let us know he was OK.  Then, it was fine for him to cross over into the light.

Please continue to keep our family in your prayers.  I will miss my husband and best friend very much, and the thought of him leaving us very soon is hard to accept.  Thanks for your understanding as we spend these last days with our immediate family.  Your support is so greatly appreciated.

Monday, May 13, 2013

May 9th - Thursday through Sunday, May 12th





For those of you who have been following this blog and Joe's journey, I need to let you know that if you want to stop by and visit, you need to do so this week as I don't know how much longer Joe will be able to have visitors.  Joe is struggling with his breathing more and more.  His voice is gone, and only but a whisper.  He is almost continually on the bi-pap device to assist his breathing and sleeps most of the day.  When you call or text, know that I have done the best that I can in terms of letting you know when it is a good time to visit.

Thursday:
Our day shifter today was Becca.  Joe's Aunt Jean and our friend Kay, stopped by during the day, but Joe was sleeping.  Our niece, Stephanie, brought by poster board for Dan to work on a school extra credit project and to visit with her Uncle Joe.  Jeff, our brother-in-law, once again came over to cut the grass for us.  Our friend, Karen K., stopped by and GOT MILK for us.  Andy H. (Elder Class of '79) brought us a dinner and danish for breakfast, but Joe was dozing off again....although I did get a picture.  By the way, Joe's ginormous scab on the bridge of his nose finally fell off.  YAY! 

Friday:
Our day shifter today was Pat.  Joe's cousin, Lisa (who came into town from TN) and her mother, Aunt Mary Jane stopped by to visit and brought us a hanging plant for our shepherd's hook in the front yard.  That was well timed, because I hadn't yet been to Home Depot to get our plants yet.  Thank you!  Our friend, Kay stopped by and brought candy for Joe's sweet tooth and a gift card.  Joe's sister, Jane, brought us a few tubes of toothpaste and came by to visit with her brother.  Jerri and Ed B. (our friends from church) brought Dan home at the end of his work shift.  Thanks to all.

Saturday:
Our day shifter today was Becca and me.  Steve M. (Elder Class of '79) stopped by to see Joe but he was sleeping.  Our neighbors, Mary Alice M. and her daughter, Katie, brought us Tropicana OJ, lunch from Arby's (French Dip subs and Jamocha shakes....OMG), and flowers for me for Mother's Day.  She tried to tell me they were from my son, Dan, but he didn't claim them.  MA, thanks for thinking of me.  It means a lot.  Jerri and Ed B. (our friends from church) picked up Dan from his work shift, stopped by with a couple of soft drink 12-packs, and brought back communion from 4:30pm mass.  Thank you everyone!

Sunday:
Our day shifter today was me!  Joe's sister, Jane, stopped by to visit with Joe.  My sister, Jenny, and her husband, Steve, came by with a jello creamsicle pie.  Joe had a very rough Saturday night and Sunday.  He was very anxious, normal med dosage didn't seem to help, he struggled with coughing, was sweating profusely and he could not get comfortable.  He also didn't eat or drink much of anything all day, so his output was limited, too.  When he was off the bi-pap for a very short period of time, he struggled to focus his eyes on you.  I asked him if he felt drugged, to which he responded with a head nod of yes.  I got worried and called hospice.  They sent out an RN to evaluate him.  She determined that he didn't get more than 3-4 hours of sleep at any one time and he was just plain exhausted.  However; since she had only just met Joe, she also commented that we could be entering the next phase in this horrible disease.  I upped his meds so he could sleep through the night.

I apologize for leaving all of you hanging these last few days....wondering about what was going on.  It was a combination of long days, not having the energy to update the blog and 2 days of waiting for security software updates to load on my laptop.  UGH!

Keep our family in your prayers as I think what the RN said about moving into the next phase is correct.  I find myself crying more and wondering "why Joe?".  It's so unfair that someone so vital is being totally stripped of everything and wasting away right before our eyes.  It kills me to not be able to take the pain and frustration away.  You try your best to keep things upbeat but even that is getting next to impossible to pull off these days.  It helps to know that all of you, our support system, continue those prayers for Joe and our family every day.  We thank you!

  

Thursday, May 9, 2013

May 6th - Monday, May 7th - Tuesday & May 8th - Wednesday

 
 
I'm only sharing one picture today.  Joe's had several visitors over the last 3 days, but this picture is very telling.  Joe is using the bi-pap device more and more, and interacting less.  The last 2 days, he's been very nauseous.  We went from 1 nausea med to another.  The latter helped more, but still not feeling well.  Joe's voice now is mostly a whisper.  He does have a voice that comes and goes and he gets frustrated when he tries to talk and not much comes out.  His anxiety is pretty high, so he's asking for more meds.

Monday:
Our day shifter today was Becca!  Joe hasn't slept well in the last few days due to nausea.  When he does eat breakfast, it's either 1 soft boiled egg or very small cup of Life cereal, some jello or tapioca.  Then, its more meds and back to sleep.  He's coughing more often.  His lungs are completely clear, it's only attaching to his voice box and rattles.  He doesn't have the strength to cough it up.  And, it's not up high enough to have it sunctioned out.  We've been trying Robitussin, and it calms the cough.  The nebulizer (with albuterol) treatments works very well.  It seems to stop his cough completely.  But, it does wear him out.

Our friend, Laura R. (from church) texted and offered to bring a few grocery items over in the morning.  When she came by, Joe was sleeping so she didn't stay.  The rest of the morning and afternoon was pretty quiet.

Later in the day, our friend Regina (from work) brought Joe some fresh squeezed OJ and "heavenly hash".  Unfortunately, Joe couldn't enjoy any of it....nauseous again.  UGH!  Joe's sister, Jane, came by to visit and stopped up the street to bring back a 2-liter of room temperature 7-Up for the sour stomach.  Thank you!

Tuesday:
Our day shifter today was Vicki Y. (our hair stylist).  She helped me quite a bit with laundry, and general cleaning.  I appreciate it very much!  It was a very quiet day and night.  It's the first time that Joe had absolutely no visitors. 

Wednesday:
Our day shifter today was Cathy M. (from church).  It was a much busier day all the way around.  Joe had another coughing episode that required a breathing treatment.  Then, he slept much of the day.

Later in the afternoon, our friends Pat (Elder Class of '79) and his wife, Lynn, stopped by to visit Joe and brought us a dinner.  Thank you!  Several other friends made return visits to see Joe including, Dave B. (Elder Class of '79), Mike C. (Elder Class of '76), Steve C. (Elder Class of '78) who also brought a few 12 packs of soft drinks, my sister Jenny and her son, Erik, who brought 2 boxes of Life cereal. 

Jane, Jeff and Stephanie all stopped by.  Jeff tried to rig something for Joe to allow him to get our friend, Pat's attention when he awakens during the night.  With the oxygen concentrator on, and the noise it makes, its hard for Joe to make enough sound, while wearing the bi-pap, to awaken Pat who sleeps on the couch next to him.  Joe has minimal use of his hands/fingers, but we tried to use a wireless door bell under his hand.  He doesn't have the strength to depress the button.  We also tried putting the same control on his bi-pap mask strap so he could push his head against the button, but that wasn't comfortable.  Jeff ended up using a sleigh bell strap with a string coming from Joe's bi-pap mask and draped over the pillow behind him and balanced on the edge of the bed.  When he wakes up, Joe pulls his chin forward, which pulls the bell strap forward.  It falls over the edge of the bed to make a loud jingle sound.  Success!    

This is the last time that I will allow myself to get 3 days behind on the blog updates.  It's too tough trying to remember everything.  My apologies, if I did forget.  As always, thank you for your continued support of our family.

Monday, May 6, 2013

May 4th - Saturday & May 5th - Sunday





Saturday:
Our day shifter today was me!  Joe is sleeping pretty well, only to awaken for bathroom breaks and a drink.  The bi-pap device really dries you out.  His breakfast was small.....a soft boiled egg and tapioca.  He tells me he is trying, but always feels full.  He slept much of the day.

Our friend, Pat, took Dan to work in the morning for me when she left.  Our friend, Ed B. (from church) picked up Dan from work at the end of his shift and brought him home.  Thanks to you both!  Later in the afternoon, our friends from church, Ed B., his wife, Jerri, and their son, Joe brought us communion after 4:30pm mass and to visit with Joe.

In the evening, our friend, Kathy H. stopped by to visit with us.  Joe's sister Jane, and her husband, Jeff, came over.  Jeff finished cutting the grass that he had started during the day.  He had to make two passes across the yard because it grew so fast and was too high....from all the rain.

Sunday:
Our day shifter today, again, was me!  Since it was the weekend, there are no hospice aids here for bathing and shaving so I handled at least the shaving part to keep Joe looking his best.

Our niece, Stephanie, came over to visit her uncle and take her cousin, Dan, out for some extra practice driving the car....in the rain.  She also helped Becca with cleaning her room and adjoining bathroom.  My sister, Jenny, and her son, Erik, stopped by to see Joe, but he was sleeping.  They had made a lime jello/cool whip pie since Joe has really enjoyed his desserts lately.  Many thanks!  Late afternoon, our friend, Kathy H. came by to help Joe with a video he wanted to make.

In the evening, Steve S. (Elder Class of '79) stopped by to drop off a dinner and visit with Joe, and encouraged him to keep fighting.

Thank you to all that continue to support us by following the blog.  It helps to keep me and my family going during this very stressful time in our lives.  We love you all!

Saturday, May 4, 2013

May 2nd - Thursday & May 3rd - Friday





We took delivery of a nebulizer machine to give Joe breathing treatments when the coughing becomes too much.  We also have a suction machine to help rid Joe of the stuff he can't quite cough up.  Fortunately, the nebulizer is helping to loosen the secretions and I haven't yet had to use the suction machine.  I'm not looking forward to having to use the suction machine.   

Thursday:

Our day shifter today was our friend, Pat.  Joe continues to wake fairly early, has breakfast, his meds and then watches a little TV before taking a power nap.  Joe's breakfast is fairly small...usually a very small cup of cereal and either jello with fruit, tapioca or yogurt.  He's trying to eat, but he always feels full.  As you can see from pics posted with his visitors, Joe continues to lose weight.

Wilma (hospice aid) came by in the afternoon to bathe Joe.  Our brother-in-law, Jeff, cut the grass for us.  Ever since the lawn service company put down the weed and feed and we've been getting the rain, the grass has just taken off.  This makes for quite a job keeping the grass cut.  We use a mulching mower, so the job is really a big one.  We can't thank Jeff enough for handling this huge job for us right now.  Thank you so much!  Dave B. (Elder Class of '79) came by after work to visit Joe, and stopped by the grocery store pick up some Yoplait yogurts.  My sister, Jenny, and her son, Erik, came by to visit.  Mike W. (Elder Class of '79) and his wife, Tina, also came by to visit with Joe.  They told us about another Elder grad, a few years behind Joe, who was also diagnosed with ALS last year.

Friday:

Today's day shifter was our friend, Bob, (and later, Becca, when he had to leave) who helped me deal with AAA who had to come and unlock our Camry that was stuck in the garage.  Somehow, the security system malfunctioned and it locked all the doors.  The key fob that we use to unlock the car was not working, and for some reason none of the keys will open the door locks.  AAA tech unlocked the door and said most likely the security system was the problem and to take it to the dealership for service.  Bob suggested we keep all the windows down, just in case.  We needed to get that car out of the garage because it was blocking the mower, which I had to move outside so the tech could come and change the belt that got shredded the other day.

Amber (hospice aid) and her trainee, Christine, came to bathe and shave Joe right after breakfast.  He enjoys those baths, but they always tire him out.  Afterward, Joe took another one of his power naps, so Bob didn't really have to do much for Joe, but he helped me quite a bit, by helping to fold the laundry, which was greatly appreciated. 

Later in the day, Jack W. (Elder Class of '79) stopped by to drop off a dinner (thanks!), but he couldn't visit because Joe was sleeping.  Early evening, Donna D. and Judy B. (both OLV grade school classmates), came by to reminisce about the old days and brought several class pictures. 

We are thankful for the many blessings we have from all the love and support of our friends and family!